"Bleed me, beat me, kill me, take me now, before I change my mind..."

[ebonlock]

I believe I've acquired a new hobby quite unintentionally, insomnia. Running on a complete lack of restful sleep is now the norm it seems and I have no clue what to do about it. Banned the kitties last night but then couldn't drop off to sleep despite my best efforts. Finally somewhere around 2 I passed out, but spent the rest of the night waking up at random times to horrible anxiety dreams. The last was the worst, including tremendous frustration, a racing heart, and the undeniable urge to throttle someone. What's up with that?

I'd consider taking something to knock me out but I'm loathe to do it during the work week. See I have an incredibly fine tuned body clock, I don't ever use my alarm clock unless I have to get up at an ungodly hour (4 or 5 a.m.) for some reason. Ask Aelf if you don't believe me. I just wake up on time every day whether I want to or not. It's great during the week, and I don't mind rolling over and going back to sleep on the weekend either. But I'm afraid if I start screwing around with my sleep pattern with drugs I'm going to upset that, and that would suck. Tomorrow night, on the other hand, all bets are off.

I currently have several projects to work on, but the most pressing is probably a revamped Halloween costume I made ages ago of Christine's Hannibal slave girl outfit from the beginning of Phantom of the Opera:



It's mostly done but I couldn't afford very good fabric when I originally made it and of course it no longer fits as it was made for me when I was a skinny little grad student living on peanut butter and mashed potatoes. So I'm going to get me some velvet and do it up right. It shouldn't take too long to re do, and I have an idea or two for other upgrades while I'm at it. Fun!

Now I just need to figure out where to wear it on Halloween...

Comments

[tersa.livejournal.com]

The last was the worst, including tremendous frustration, a racing heart, and the undeniable urge to throttle someone. What's up with that?

I think it means we need to go to Dave & Buster's sometimes and let you get your anxieties out shooting zombies.

:)

(BTW, the picture isn't loading for me, which makes me sad, because I can't remember exactly what it looks like.)

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

I think it means we need to go to Dave & Buster's sometimes and let you get your anxieties out shooting zombies.

I could go for some straightforward old fashioned violence about now, yeah.

(BTW, the picture isn't loading for me, which makes me sad, because I can't remember exactly what it looks like.)

Hmm, I think it's hosted on a Geocities site, which may be the problem. Try going directly to it:
http://www.geocities.com/Broadway/1875/favslav.jpg

[xleste.livejournal.com]

I get this message going directly to it:

We're sorry, but this page is currently unavailable for viewing.
If this site belongs to you, please read this help page for more information and assistance.

Hmph.

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

Right, doing this the slightly harder way, but Geocities is being stupid today so there you go:

sleep or doctor

[elo-sf.livejournal.com]

I'll mother hen you for a change, if you won't get the sleep you need you need to see a doctor to get some help.

*HUG*

That said, I'm not sleeping all that well myself

Re: sleep or doctor

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

I'll mother hen you for a change, if you won't get the sleep you need you need to see a doctor to get some help.

*HUG*

That said, I'm not sleeping all that well myself

Perhaps some mutual mother henning is in order? *G* Seriously I slept much better last night, I think it was a combination of exhaustion and physical exertion that helped. I always sleep better after I exercise, perhaps getting back into the steady yoga routine would help you too?

Oh and drop me a line or give me a call Saturday at the latest about lunch Sunday. I have to do my volunteer gig (10-12 usually) in the morning but could easily come up from there and over to your place.

lunch sunday it is

[elo-sf.livejournal.com]

any time you want to come by is fine.

Re: lunch sunday it is

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

any time you want to come by is fine.

I'll give you a call when I've finished up at the HS and am on my way up, how's that?

works for me

[elo-sf.livejournal.com]

*hug*