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[ebonlock]

I've noticed a trend these days, either I wake up easily locating at least one or two potential jobs to apply for or I spend a couple of solid hours looking and finding only things I'm not qualified for or have already applied to. Today is one of the latter days, and inevitably I end up depressed and scared, certain I'm never going to find anything and soon I'll be living out of a cardboard box.

It doesn't help that the company that promised to get back to me yesterday hasn't bothered. I'm trying to keep that from adding to the immense pile of self-loathing already heaped on my shoulders during this process. I swear this is way worse than dating, at least the ego-bruising from that doesn't include financial insecurity to boot. So far I'm hitting all of my unemployment nightmares one by one right on schedule.

Oh and I've got a dentist's appointment later today and at some point the whole door painting drama is taking place...

But on a positive note I did get to spend a little time not thinking about my dire financial straits with cyranocyrano last night. And the ever wonderful forkmonkey dropped me off lots and lots of boxes which I'll spend the rest of the week happily filling up. It's a little bizarre I suppose but I must admit that packing is one of the few things giving me a sense of accomplishment and control right now. Yeah I know, I'm a complete freak, but I'll take my pleasures where I can find them right now.

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[tersa.livejournal.com]

It makes sense. Packing gives you a sense of control over something when a lot of life is out of your control.

*sigh* I wish there was something tangible I could do to help out, but I can't remember the last time my company has hired anyone locally from outside. :( *hug* I hope to get to see you this weekend sometime. I think I'll make dinner Sunday night, to chip in a little where I can.

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hon.

[phillipalden.livejournal.com]

Good Luck!

[moonlightnrain.livejournal.com]

I know it's not as much of an issue for you this time, but if you need some boxes shifted out of the way, I'll gladly volunteer my dining room area. I'd also offer to help you pack boxes, but since that's giving you a sense of accomplishment, I think you are unlikely to want help. :)

Friday night at my place for BSG and dinner? My Tivo screwed up getting last week's AGAIN, so you'll have to endure watching it again before the new one.

Oh! And Dexter last night was so good, I really wanted to watch another immediately after it. Turns out I knew who the Ice Truck Killer was from his very first scene (well, sans the hoodie, that is). Yay!

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

BSG at your place sounds good, Aelf's going to come over Thursday night to watch the last ep at my place if you just want to swing by and join us that'd be cool. And yeah the Ice Truck killer was kind of obvious, but the nice thing is that the story remains interesting even after you know who it is.

[moonlightnrain.livejournal.com]

Hey! I'm all proud of myself for figuring it out. Don't be all "sheeyeah, whatev." Let me have my moment of pride, wouldya, smartiepants? ;)

Aelf is, of course, invited over on Friday too, but I think I'll skip on Thursday if you two don't mind seeing last week's two nights in a row.

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

I certainly won't mind seeing it multiple times, believe me.

[moonlightnrain.livejournal.com]

Okay, good. I'm thinking of programming the Tivo to record later so it doesn't yet again try to force me to watch random Korean drama instead.

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

Best of luck with that ;)

BTW, very glad I'm home while the painting thing is going on, as I'm not seeing anybody from the complex here keeping an eye on our stuff while our front doors are wide open. *grumble*

[moonlightnrain.livejournal.com]

Well, I just meant so we don't have it do what it did to us during the BSG specials where the first part was clipped because Tivo tried to record and flipped to the wrong channel. If I tell it not to tape until later, it may not get it, but at least viewing it live won't be interrupted.

I think this is a sign that both: A) you were meant to be out of work until today, even as stressful as that has been, so you could be present while they fuck around and B) it's time to move. The fucking bastards.

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry the job hunt hasn't been going better. I can't remember if you mentioned this already, but have you tried hooking up with an employment agency? I have a couple of friends who were able to at least find temp jobs or part-time positions via this route. I know it's not ideal, but it might help tide you over if finances start to get really tight. It might even lead to a good job.

I hear ya about wanting to have some control in your life. I hate feeling helpless, which is something unemployment can do to you. While it may not seem like a big thing, I think it's healthy and productive to be packing things for the move. And, hey, it's something that needs to be done, so why not do it while you have some extra time?

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

I'm actually making huge strides on packing, I'll have most of it done by this weekend if I keep up the way I am and that'll be at least one stress to check off the list :)

[elenderel.livejournal.com]

either I wake up easily locating at least one or two potential jobs to apply for or I spend a couple of solid hours looking and finding only things I'm not qualified for or have already applied to

I notice you don't mention an utter lack of jobs whatsoever ... which was my situation back in 2004 when I was out of work for four months. I was seriously wondering if I weren't just wasting the oxygen of people that the world actually wanted and needed. I was really on the verge of telling Steve that the time had come for me to become a migrant worker somewhere that needed a reporter/editor just before my current employer hired me.

I know there are freelance opportunities out there; whether they pay enough (singly or in combination) is another matter. I spent the last eight months looking for freelance work and found two gigs that I could possibly work into my schedule, and neither of them paid well. Since you're unencumbered by the scheduling demands of a day job and have what is undoubtedly a far more impressive resume, I'm thinking you should have much better luck finding a decent gig than I did.

If you're still considering that route, let me know - I did lots of research on the do's and don'ts of freelancing and would be happy to share my bookmarks if you like. Anything to help.

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

I'm actually signed up with two recruitment companies that will handle all the paperwork on freelance gigs for me if I get the job through them, so I'm looking into short term positions with them now. The downside is that most of those positions give you like a day or two advance notice.