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[ebonlock]

Ok I think I've just about reached my limit for one week, but fortunately I'm home alone so bursting into embarrassing and messy tears is no big deal. I've just...I've had it, I really, truly have.

So first my new insurance company has been dicking me around severely when it comes to my one and only prescription. Two phone calls and an eternity on hold gets me the same message, call back in a day or two and maybe we'll have a response for you. My doctor has even contacted them about it but nothing. I'm down to my last few pills and I can't afford $200 for 30 more so what I'm going to do is beyond me. I guess stock up on antacids and start eating them like candy again.

Next, after pinging the recruiter I talked to on Monday the job that was a total fit for me has decided I don't even merit an interview. Good thing I asked because the recruiter apparently feels no need to follow up with me. Really fucking annoying.

The company that called me on Monday left a vague voicemail so I wasn't even sure which job it was that they were interested in me for. So I called them back, left a message and was told I'd hear back on Friday. Being impatient I went ahead and called them only to have the woman who'd left me the original voicemail ask me which job I was calling about. I actually had to pause and then remind her she hadn't actually said in her message. So she puts me on hold, I get bounced accidentally to their receptionist (who sounds about 12) then finally back to the original woman who says she needs to call me back on Monday after she finds my paperwork.

*sigh*

Heard from the apartment manager that next Tuesday they're painting my front door which includes leaving it open for 20 minutes. Oh yeah I feel totally comfortable with that, so now I've got to make plans to be home all day on Tuesday so I can keep the cats from escaping and make sure nobody comes in and makes off with my stuff while they're doing this.

My car needs its regularly scheduled maintenance and the Honda people are starting to cross over into the harassing level of reminders. I know, believe me I know I just can't fucking afford it right now. And Kage's overdue for her physical so I've guilted myself into taking her in an hour. I can't really afford that either but I'm responsible for her well being so I can't ignore it. I still have enough in savings to cover that at least.

My phone bill came yesterday and I blew through way too many minutes last month so unless it's an emergency or work related I beg everyone not to call me. Use email, I will respond, I promise. I just need to save my phone minutes for the really important stuff, and while talking to you is important, it's just not something I can afford to do right now. Email, ok?

And finally the renting outlook around here is dire, especially for someone without a job at the moment. I just keep telling myself I've got until May 1 to figure out what I'm doing. The problem is I know just how fast the time is going to pass. I'm seriously starting to think about just moving back east and giving up, it's all just way too overwhelming at the moment.

I've still got enough time for a nice little breakdown before I have to take Kage to the vet, and I intend to make the most of it...

Comments

[divine-debris.livejournal.com]

Sorry you're faced with the utter suckage that is life right now...when things seem to gang up on you all at once it is beyond frustrating and overwhelming, I know I've been there! For what it's worth, we would be happy to have you back up here, have you considered looking at the Syracuse University site for jobs? I know you would rather stay in sunny California but there is always room for you here! We love you and miss you!

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

I'll check out the SU site, couldn't hurt, right? And my god rent is so cheap there it makes me want to weep.

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

I wish I could think of some great advice to give you, but I can't think of anything. If it were me, I think I would have had the nervous breakdown at least a couple of problems ago. Unfortunately, I think the only thing you can do is try to hang in there and take it one day at a time. I know when I start feeling overwhelmed, it's the only way I can cope. So make it through the vet appointment today and then try to regroup and recover over the weekend if you can.

I don't know the whole situation, but if you've found yourself continually encountering obstacles then maybe it wouldn't be a bad idea to move.

I really hope things get better soon!

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much, it helps to know I can whine about this and not drive everyone away with the intensity of my self pity :) I'm just utterly exhausted with all the bad news this week, I could use just a little good news right now.

[rusty-armour.livejournal.com]

Considering everything you've had to go through recently, I think you're more than entitled to feel sorry for yourself! Well, with the run of bad luck you've been having, I think something good has to happen. I mean, it's a cosmic and statistical probability!

Here's hoping some good luck comes your way! :-)

[lisa-marli.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
May you find a job soonest. And that perfect apartment right afterward.

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I'm definitely desperately in need of both :)

[eilonwey.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Bleh. Really hoping that things start looking up for you soon.

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

Thanks hon. I'm thinking of going to class tomorrow morning just to get away from all of this and stop thinking about it for a little while...

[chazpure.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey!

{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}

I'm so sorry things are sucky right now. (Our car just died again - what is this, some giant high-suckage system sitting off the coast right now? :-P)

Sending many good vibes for a positive turn-around, a great new job and perfect apartment to come your way soonest.

{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

what is this, some giant high-suckage system sitting off the coast right now?

You know I think you may have hit on the answer right there. And sorry to hear about your car, that truly is the very definition of suck!

[elenderel.livejournal.com]

If there were anything I could do ... anything within my power to relieve the suckage ... I would do it. I hope the vet visit went well at least. I hope you're able to be among good friends this weekend, or can get in some quality time with Mother Nature somewhere. Meanwhile I'll be sending you good vibes and praying for goodness to come your way.

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

Thank you, dear, that helps more than you know. The vet visit actually went really well, the vet was astonished by how healthy a 15+ year old cat could be. She has a cataract in one eye but he says it's perfectly normal and nothing to worry about. It certainly doesn't slow her down at all :)

[elenderel.livejournal.com]

The vet visit actually went really well, the vet was astonished by how healthy a 15+ year old cat could be.

Oh that's a relief!

[missjones.livejournal.com]

As much as the kids and I would absolutely love for you to come back east, I really really really hope that you find a job out there and can make it work. I know how much you love it out there and what a great fit that whole west coast lifestyle is for you. I meant what I said on the phone the other day...if you need *anything* just let me know. Even just a shoulder to cry on. I may suck at keeping in touch, but I always love you and am always here for you.

And did you get the paypal payment? We got a receipt for it, but I want to make sure that the money actually made it into your account...not that I am paranoid about it disappearing into the ether or anything like that...not me. :)

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

I got the Paypal, thanks hon, I'm hoping to get the Wii out tomorrow. I was thinking of sending it to Mom so someone will be there to sign for it and you can keep it hidden from T-. Does that sound good?

[missjones.livejournal.com]

That sounds fantastic. Mom asked me yesterday if you would be sending it to her house or not, so I will tell her that it will be coming over there.

She is going to be absolutely floored and your status as favorite, most mojolicious aunt is assured for the next few millenia. :)

[elenderel.livejournal.com]

As much as the kids and I would absolutely love for you to come back east, I really really really hope that you find a job out there and can make it work. I know how much you love it out there and what a great fit that whole west coast lifestyle is for you. I meant what I said on the phone the other day...if you need *anything* just let me know. Even just a shoulder to cry on. I may suck at keeping in touch, but I always love you and am always here for you.

Ditto absolutely everything she said. Word for word (except I don't have your number, heh).

[moonlightnrain.livejournal.com]

Awww, man. When it rains, it pours, doesn't it?

Why don't you come up tonight when you drop me off and let me do a reading for you? Or at least hang out for a while?

And whatever comes, whatever kind of help I can offer is yours.