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somewhere i have never travelled
Sep. 3rd, 2003 08:35 amFirst, a heartfelt thanks to everyone who offered condolences yesterday, I appreciated the hugs and general support. Hopefully today we'll know a bit more about the circumstances behind my cousin's death. My only hope is that it was quick and painless and that she passed into the next life unafraid and welcomed by loved ones. She was a very good person and we will all miss her deeply.
Spent some time by myself last night, thinking and doing a few things that always make me feel alive and happy. I find it very important to remind myself just how good life can be after a loss, and just puttering around in the yard and playing with the kitties helped enormously. Pye's endless exuberance and shameless bids for attention always make me laugh, he really is like a spoiled puppy most of the time. Kage's was a quieter presence, but relaxing and calming too. The Yang to Pye's Yin, so to speak. We all three lazed around in the back room while I dug out some old tapes my sisters and I had made, then watched part of "The Quiet Man". You just can't go wrong with a John Ford film, and that's one of my all time favorites.
Retired to my room early and did a small ceremony after re-doing my altar to set a more somber tone. I also added my cousin's name and the circumstances of her death to my Book of Shadows. Came to the conclusion that my Book is too full of loss and sadness, I need to add more happy events to it to balance out the negativity.
This whole thing is making me think about my own goals, my own desires for my life. Am I where I want to be, doing want I want at this point? And if not is it because I'm counting on some future event to make the changes I want to have happen? If I am, that's pretty dumb, life is a finite thing, not to be wasted. This will take more pondering I think.
But, on a lighter note, for all those who snickered at my anti-Albertson's rants in the past, allow me to point you at the following article:
A judge in San Diego has ordered Albertson's, Inc., the nation's second-biggest grocery chain, to pay $1.85 million for scanner overcharges in California stores.
I told you those bastards weren't to be trusted.
Also received my beautiful ROTK Frodo poster last night, so![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
kuro_neko, yours should be on its way to you already. I thought these things were pre-orders, but apparently not. It's gorgeous enough to require a frame I think.
Spent some time by myself last night, thinking and doing a few things that always make me feel alive and happy. I find it very important to remind myself just how good life can be after a loss, and just puttering around in the yard and playing with the kitties helped enormously. Pye's endless exuberance and shameless bids for attention always make me laugh, he really is like a spoiled puppy most of the time. Kage's was a quieter presence, but relaxing and calming too. The Yang to Pye's Yin, so to speak. We all three lazed around in the back room while I dug out some old tapes my sisters and I had made, then watched part of "The Quiet Man". You just can't go wrong with a John Ford film, and that's one of my all time favorites.
Retired to my room early and did a small ceremony after re-doing my altar to set a more somber tone. I also added my cousin's name and the circumstances of her death to my Book of Shadows. Came to the conclusion that my Book is too full of loss and sadness, I need to add more happy events to it to balance out the negativity.
This whole thing is making me think about my own goals, my own desires for my life. Am I where I want to be, doing want I want at this point? And if not is it because I'm counting on some future event to make the changes I want to have happen? If I am, that's pretty dumb, life is a finite thing, not to be wasted. This will take more pondering I think.
But, on a lighter note, for all those who snickered at my anti-Albertson's rants in the past, allow me to point you at the following article:
A judge in San Diego has ordered Albertson's, Inc., the nation's second-biggest grocery chain, to pay $1.85 million for scanner overcharges in California stores.
I told you those bastards weren't to be trusted.
Also received my beautiful ROTK Frodo poster last night, so
kuro_neko, yours should be on its way to you already. I thought these things were pre-orders, but apparently not. It's gorgeous enough to require a frame I think.
