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Hmph. I was in a great mood yesterday until the meeting from hell (tm) which went on for almost two and a half hours. We got a lot accomplished so I shouldn't bitch too much, but it did mean I left work a half an hour later than I wanted to, thus giving me less time to get home and get changed and grab a bite to eat before dance class.
Una worked us hard again and decided to get us spinning in the second class of the semester. Allow me to just share this one personal tidbit, I can't spin. I get dizzy very easily and then start wobbling like a drunkard and it's just all over. Una did share a few tricks with us, but I think it's just going to take time and lots and lots of practice. At least there's a certain sense of comraderie as we all try to figure out what we're doing and get our bodies to move in new and interesting ways.
Tonight is Shira's class, which won't be quite as physically challenging (for class one anyway) but good to get back into the routine again. I look forward to going over several routines and practicing some more with my zills. I haven't even picked them up since class ended and we had our recital. Bad me. Absolutely must practice more. Must.
I also need to start giving Mabon some serious thought and attention. It's coming up this weekend and I haven't even started planning yet. I want to get a little fancy this time, set the yard up as one big circle, burn candles and incense, etc., etc. This may have to be reconsidered as the grass out back would likely go up in flames if I even attempted it. Perhaps I'll settle for a little circle on the patio. Better safe than sorry I guess. Regardless, something nice and focused and soothing would be lovely. I just need to figure out exactly what I want to do.
See in most religions you know what you're supposed to do at every occasion. It's all written out in one holy text or another and the clerics lead you through it by the hand, all you have to do is follow along. Wicca's not like that, we're all sort of making it up as we go along, if we're solitary practitioners. Coveners get the reassurance of the clerical intercessor level. I did the coven thing once but often found it too restrictive, too much like all the other religions in the world that had turned me off in the first place.
Wicca is supposed to be about direct commune with the higher powers, there need be no barrier between you and Them because you're a part of Them, and They of you.
To me, a solitary practitioner has always been the purest form of Wiccan worship, just you, the Gods, and all of Creation. On the other hand it's also the most demanding and the scariest. You're responsible for your actions (or lack thereof), you have to make choices and you have to live with the consequences. There's no hand to hold, no safety net, and frankly I wouldn't have it any other way.
Of course it does also mean fretting over just how to celebrate this upcoming holiday. I could go with any number of preformulated ceremonies from any number of texts that I own. But somehow that doesn't seem right. I think I need to create something, offer Them something from my heart...something personal. This I will need to seriously ponder....
Una worked us hard again and decided to get us spinning in the second class of the semester. Allow me to just share this one personal tidbit, I can't spin. I get dizzy very easily and then start wobbling like a drunkard and it's just all over. Una did share a few tricks with us, but I think it's just going to take time and lots and lots of practice. At least there's a certain sense of comraderie as we all try to figure out what we're doing and get our bodies to move in new and interesting ways.
Tonight is Shira's class, which won't be quite as physically challenging (for class one anyway) but good to get back into the routine again. I look forward to going over several routines and practicing some more with my zills. I haven't even picked them up since class ended and we had our recital. Bad me. Absolutely must practice more. Must.
I also need to start giving Mabon some serious thought and attention. It's coming up this weekend and I haven't even started planning yet. I want to get a little fancy this time, set the yard up as one big circle, burn candles and incense, etc., etc. This may have to be reconsidered as the grass out back would likely go up in flames if I even attempted it. Perhaps I'll settle for a little circle on the patio. Better safe than sorry I guess. Regardless, something nice and focused and soothing would be lovely. I just need to figure out exactly what I want to do.
See in most religions you know what you're supposed to do at every occasion. It's all written out in one holy text or another and the clerics lead you through it by the hand, all you have to do is follow along. Wicca's not like that, we're all sort of making it up as we go along, if we're solitary practitioners. Coveners get the reassurance of the clerical intercessor level. I did the coven thing once but often found it too restrictive, too much like all the other religions in the world that had turned me off in the first place.
Wicca is supposed to be about direct commune with the higher powers, there need be no barrier between you and Them because you're a part of Them, and They of you.
To me, a solitary practitioner has always been the purest form of Wiccan worship, just you, the Gods, and all of Creation. On the other hand it's also the most demanding and the scariest. You're responsible for your actions (or lack thereof), you have to make choices and you have to live with the consequences. There's no hand to hold, no safety net, and frankly I wouldn't have it any other way.
Of course it does also mean fretting over just how to celebrate this upcoming holiday. I could go with any number of preformulated ceremonies from any number of texts that I own. But somehow that doesn't seem right. I think I need to create something, offer Them something from my heart...something personal. This I will need to seriously ponder....
