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End of the rope
May. 23rd, 2006 11:19 amYep, I'm home sick again but fortunately I was able to get an appointment with another doctor in the department, which I'll be leaving for in about an hour. The doctor's name is actually "Allegria", I'm taking that as a good sign.
Anyway, last night was the worst to date, I took some Tylenol PM which usually knocks me on my ass for at least 8 hours. I was out for 4 and I've been awake since about 12:30 until now feeling nauseated and awful. I couldn't face food last night and today I can handle some Gatorade and that's about it. According to the scales I'm down 4 pounds since Sunday. It feels weird to get on a scale and dread seeing a lower number after spending so many years celebrating that very thing. Very weird indeed.
I wish I could believe I'd get some sort of answer for all of this today, even if it's a bad answer, but I'm afraid I've lost most of my faith. I just know I can't take much more of this.
Anyway, last night was the worst to date, I took some Tylenol PM which usually knocks me on my ass for at least 8 hours. I was out for 4 and I've been awake since about 12:30 until now feeling nauseated and awful. I couldn't face food last night and today I can handle some Gatorade and that's about it. According to the scales I'm down 4 pounds since Sunday. It feels weird to get on a scale and dread seeing a lower number after spending so many years celebrating that very thing. Very weird indeed.
I wish I could believe I'd get some sort of answer for all of this today, even if it's a bad answer, but I'm afraid I've lost most of my faith. I just know I can't take much more of this.
