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Have you ever had a morning where you woke up and thought, "Today is just not going to be my day."? I did that this morning. It's not like there was anything particularly wrong with the way it started, I woke up a little early as Kage assured me it was indeed time for breakfast. She's bright enough to know which one doles out the food and heads straight for me in the mornings with a cheerful determination that's difficult to ignore at 6:20 in the morning. I imagine this will be a great deal less cute tomorrow morning, but I can always go back to bed after feeding her.
After that I got dressed and prepared to go out and water the plants only to notice that we'd managed to leave the glass sliding door open all night with only the screen between us and any passing serial killer. I beat back my New York paranoia and assured myself that it was a very safe neighborhood and to stop being such a worry wart. Still I did do a quick inventory of all the electronics in the family room. All present and accounted for, thankfully.
Didn't run into a single snail or cockroach or even a spider, though I did get yelled at by an annoyed squirrel. Apparently they've discovered the seed bell I put out for the birds. Maybe it'll get them to leave the baby peaches alone...maybe.
At any rate, I realized my body was going to betray me once again for a big event in my life. Sometimes I really hate being a girl. So maybe most of my mood is just hormonally related. Well that combined with a dark sky that won't at least go ahead and rain already. I'd love a good summer storm, alas it's just not likely to happen I'm afraid.
Also realized that despite my best efforts the weekend filled up and I have little to no time to clean. Must focus on that tonight and accomplish much, including dishes, or I'm really going to be hurting next week. See my sister, brother-in-law and neice arrive next Saturday and I'd really like the place to look its best.
This month is also the last month for paying double cable/electricity/phone, which is putting a severe strain on my finances. So money worries are at the forefront of my brain right now too.
I think it's mostly exhaustion, just trying to do too much in too little time. Sometimes living out here is like living in the middle of an ant hill, everyone's always rushing around frantically trying to fill up every spare second of their lives. We've all forgotten how to relax, hell we have to *schedule* relaxation into our lives, how sad is that?
So I've come to a conclusion. After my family leaves I'm going to go to OSH and buy myself a nice lawn chair. Probably one that folds out and you can lay down on. I'm going to set it up on the backyard, and I'm going to take a Saturday and just be. I'm not answering the phone, I'm not making any plans. And to hell with the chores. I'm going to remind myself that my friends will still be there if I allow myself a day for *me*. I'm going to remind myself that the house will remain standing without me rushing around like a crazed ferret cleaning. I'm going to remember that the world will continue to revolve without me meddling, fussing, or otherwise engaging with anyone or anything.
And then I'm going to watch LOTR. Somehow Frodo will make it all better.
Crunches: too tired, yeah I know, I'm a slacker.
Days until LOTR comes out on DVD: 5
After that I got dressed and prepared to go out and water the plants only to notice that we'd managed to leave the glass sliding door open all night with only the screen between us and any passing serial killer. I beat back my New York paranoia and assured myself that it was a very safe neighborhood and to stop being such a worry wart. Still I did do a quick inventory of all the electronics in the family room. All present and accounted for, thankfully.
Didn't run into a single snail or cockroach or even a spider, though I did get yelled at by an annoyed squirrel. Apparently they've discovered the seed bell I put out for the birds. Maybe it'll get them to leave the baby peaches alone...maybe.
At any rate, I realized my body was going to betray me once again for a big event in my life. Sometimes I really hate being a girl. So maybe most of my mood is just hormonally related. Well that combined with a dark sky that won't at least go ahead and rain already. I'd love a good summer storm, alas it's just not likely to happen I'm afraid.
Also realized that despite my best efforts the weekend filled up and I have little to no time to clean. Must focus on that tonight and accomplish much, including dishes, or I'm really going to be hurting next week. See my sister, brother-in-law and neice arrive next Saturday and I'd really like the place to look its best.
This month is also the last month for paying double cable/electricity/phone, which is putting a severe strain on my finances. So money worries are at the forefront of my brain right now too.
I think it's mostly exhaustion, just trying to do too much in too little time. Sometimes living out here is like living in the middle of an ant hill, everyone's always rushing around frantically trying to fill up every spare second of their lives. We've all forgotten how to relax, hell we have to *schedule* relaxation into our lives, how sad is that?
So I've come to a conclusion. After my family leaves I'm going to go to OSH and buy myself a nice lawn chair. Probably one that folds out and you can lay down on. I'm going to set it up on the backyard, and I'm going to take a Saturday and just be. I'm not answering the phone, I'm not making any plans. And to hell with the chores. I'm going to remind myself that my friends will still be there if I allow myself a day for *me*. I'm going to remind myself that the house will remain standing without me rushing around like a crazed ferret cleaning. I'm going to remember that the world will continue to revolve without me meddling, fussing, or otherwise engaging with anyone or anything.
And then I'm going to watch LOTR. Somehow Frodo will make it all better.
Crunches: too tired, yeah I know, I'm a slacker.
Days until LOTR comes out on DVD: 5
