He does dress better than I do, what would I bring to the relationship?

[ebonlock]

Hmph. I was in a great mood yesterday until the meeting from hell (tm) which went on for almost two and a half hours. We got a lot accomplished so I shouldn't bitch too much, but it did mean I left work a half an hour later than I wanted to, thus giving me less time to get home and get changed and grab a bite to eat before dance class.

Una worked us hard again and decided to get us spinning in the second class of the semester. Allow me to just share this one personal tidbit, I can't spin. I get dizzy very easily and then start wobbling like a drunkard and it's just all over. Una did share a few tricks with us, but I think it's just going to take time and lots and lots of practice. At least there's a certain sense of comraderie as we all try to figure out what we're doing and get our bodies to move in new and interesting ways.

Tonight is Shira's class, which won't be quite as physically challenging (for class one anyway) but good to get back into the routine again. I look forward to going over several routines and practicing some more with my zills. I haven't even picked them up since class ended and we had our recital. Bad me. Absolutely must practice more. Must.

I also need to start giving Mabon some serious thought and attention. It's coming up this weekend and I haven't even started planning yet. I want to get a little fancy this time, set the yard up as one big circle, burn candles and incense, etc., etc. This may have to be reconsidered as the grass out back would likely go up in flames if I even attempted it. Perhaps I'll settle for a little circle on the patio. Better safe than sorry I guess. Regardless, something nice and focused and soothing would be lovely. I just need to figure out exactly what I want to do.

See in most religions you know what you're supposed to do at every occasion. It's all written out in one holy text or another and the clerics lead you through it by the hand, all you have to do is follow along. Wicca's not like that, we're all sort of making it up as we go along, if we're solitary practitioners. Coveners get the reassurance of the clerical intercessor level. I did the coven thing once but often found it too restrictive, too much like all the other religions in the world that had turned me off in the first place.

Wicca is supposed to be about direct commune with the higher powers, there need be no barrier between you and Them because you're a part of Them, and They of you.

To me, a solitary practitioner has always been the purest form of Wiccan worship, just you, the Gods, and all of Creation. On the other hand it's also the most demanding and the scariest. You're responsible for your actions (or lack thereof), you have to make choices and you have to live with the consequences. There's no hand to hold, no safety net, and frankly I wouldn't have it any other way.

Of course it does also mean fretting over just how to celebrate this upcoming holiday. I could go with any number of preformulated ceremonies from any number of texts that I own. But somehow that doesn't seem right. I think I need to create something, offer Them something from my heart...something personal. This I will need to seriously ponder....

Comments

[esmerel.livejournal.com]

1) I have ginger candy. I will give you soem before class. Assuming i am not a giant dork and did not leave it on my floor this morning.

2) I have not practiced at ALL since the recital either. So we can both be slugs =)

3) Perhaps giving the lawn a good watering over the next few days will alleviate the worry over dry grass.

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[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

1) Bless you!

2) Mmm, remind me to show you that new grip Alyne showed us for the veils, I promise you'll love it.

3) I'll try watering it and mowing it before the circle, that may help, but a lot depends on how slug-like I am for the remainder of the week }:)

See ya tonight!

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

in: re lighting candles--can't you put a plate or something between the tinder-dry grass and the flamey bits?

[esmerel.livejournal.com]

That works if there's no breeze =)

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[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

What she said, and that yard is a tinderbox due to the fact that I can only water it once per day and we have no built in sprinkler system *grumble*

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[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

LOL, I can't help thinking a flash fire and hosing in the ritual area might be a bit disruptive to the mood I'm trying to create. I think jar candles may just be the way to go that evening. }:)

[silkblade.livejournal.com]

Would putting the candles in jars or hurricane lamp glass help? That's probably what I'd do, as well as adding a plate or even a pedestal of some kind to lift the whole thing off the grass. The jars would also keep the wind from blowing out the candles.

I like to use the preformulated rituals for inspiration or framework but I think I got into that habit when I was trying to make rituals for a diverse group of people in college. I haven't done a formal ritual in a really long time. Have fun with yours!

I keep forgetting to send you email about the craft nights. Does this count? :)

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[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

I may try to pick up some jars, it's all going to come down to what I have time for between now and them I'm afraid }:(
Ah well, at least I can put some effort into the ritual itself rather than the elements, I'll rationalize it that way anyhow.
And this is the next best thing to an email regarding Craft Night. Hopefully I'll have details on the next one *soon*.

My gold star! Mine!

[princessmei.livejournal.com]

Said by Cher, in Clueless when thinking to herself about dating Christian, who is gay, but she doesn't know it.

I like that movie.

And I'm really looking forward to dance class tonight.

Re: My gold star! Mine!

[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

The gold star is definitely yours, hon, and I wish you'd stuck around for class 2, we're learning tribal stuff!

[mallen.livejournal.com]

Most organized religions have been around for thousands of years and in that time have codified and ritualized worship rites. If you were to write down all of your rites and share them with other Wiccans, maybe in a couple thousand years, you'd be surprised how many people had adopted your rites as "The" way to do them.

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[ebonlock.livejournal.com]

Which is a very good reason for me *not* to write them down and share them with others. I have very little desire to found an organized religion. I'll leave that to others...like L. Ron Hubbard }:)